the second letter

we are all dreamers in so many ways. we often ask for a nice life...of a flourishing career...of goals and dreams fulfilled...of people we lost long ago coming back. and somehow, somewhere in the deepest longing of our soul, we hope for a miracle and for our prayers to be answered.

but it's not always easy to wait. the road might be endless. the seas might be too deep.the evening sky might be painted with crimson red. but dreamers, bless their hearts, they always see the other side.

to them, the road might lead to a home with a nice supper. the deepest seas might reveal a treasure from endless times and the cloudy evening sky might make a window for that single star.

as for a dreamer like me, i already stopped waiting. i now learned that the stars will not line up anymore even through the softest petition of the human heart. people have their own roads. they themselves have to explore and conquer them.

it is stated that memories have their own ways of staying in one's heart because they refuse to leave and we refuse to let go.

that's exactly what i did. i refused to let it go because until now, though that time had passed blissfully and faster than a human blink, you remained wonderful in my eyes coz i know in my heart that you will always be my bright summer sun...the cool breeze that blows gently...and the fairy prince on a cold winter snow.

but i think i have to let go now... you are happy with someone else and i do not want to interfere anymore. i'll let things as to what they should really be.

everything is sinking in. maybe what we had might not be real and i only got the illusion that the feeling between us might be mutual...

this is the point where dreaming ends.

but i'll always look back to that summer when my heart was caught in my throat and my feet was enjoying the long evening walks... when holding hands was filled with life and the city noise was a soft melodious song... when words won't come out whenever you're so close to me. the whole world's in perfect unison during those moments as my thoughts turned to you so lovingly.

it never occured to me that i'd be this happy to meet you more than once in this lifetime now. and i hope that through this letter, you will always remember that you are more than special..

i wish it was us.....but i want you to soar up high to where your heart is leading you.

i'll be fine..i promise.

we'll see each other again.

if not in this lifetime, perhaps in a different space...

in a different time.

till then my brightest star...