Another coffee session in starbucks

some love stories are not meant to happen.

they should forever remain as stories...

and they should not get through one's heart.



they should however remind us

that it's meant to teach us..

make us better..

and stronger than ever before.




all im saying is..

there's no such thing as "us"


but we had a story to tell.

and all in all...


it was beautiful.


thank you...


all the best in the world..



chris

8th placer.

mahirap na palang tumigil ngayong sinimulan ko ng lakarin and daang patungo sa parooonan.

napapagod ang aking mga paa ngunit hindi na alintana ang bawat sakit at hirap.
at ngayon...sinasabi ko na sa bawat hakbang na gagawin ng aking mga paa, tandaan na bawat kilos ay may kasamang pag-asa.


pag-asa na marating ang tinutunton..

maabot ang malayo..

at gawing posible ang imposible..



ngayon naisip ko na pagod lang ang aking katawan...hindi ang aking espiritu.

sapagkat hanggat ang puso ko ay tumitibok, umaasa, nag nanais lumaban...

ang aking espiritu ay nananatiling buhay...nag papaalalang


hindi pa tapos ang laban...


tuloy lang...


matira ang matibay..

lakas sa lakas

galing sa galing

pananampalataya sa pananampalataya...






tuloy ang laban






sa Cathay Land Inc.






isa lang ang nasa isip....




manalo.


maging una.



talunin silang LAHAT.

a little sunlight

perhaps i reached that point when all you can think of is the little sunlight poking in the innermost corner of your whole being.

it's like an old familiar voice...calling out..."hey chris you know what you want!"

yeah right...

" im sure...you want it chris..."

....

yes...


"then do it"


....



"do it chris..."



i want something different....


something that ive never done before......


i want to be in sales....



but you know...sometimes...our spirit gets weak...

it desires to break free...

and my heart's beating fast right now....

thug

thug

thug



i wanna do something else...




i want to break free...


i can almost feel it...



freedom



sunshine




joy




peace





i guess.... i know what to do now....



i'll follow my heart....

salesman

what makes a good sales man?

i often ask myself if i am meant for sales. because circumstance tends to be vague sometimes.

dont get me wrong. its not that im not enjoying my job. in fact, I am. i see myself growing and becoming succesful in Cathay Land. i see myself climbing up in the corporate ladder in the shortest span of time. I am meant to lead. I am meant to be on top.

yes i am certain about my goals.Work hard. Earn lumps of money. Build my own manpower agency etc.

but the sad part is. there are sacrifices. and in my five months stay in the company, i sacrificed a lot. time, energy and my personal life.

Working like 16 hours a day...para rin akong nagtrabaho sa ibang bansa. i dont often see my family and friends. and damn....i miss them.

being a piscean, my inner soul needs time for reflection... which i admit is not my priority right now. i have no time.....

now am i a good sales man? i earn but is it really worth it? honestly i dont know.
definitely...somethings not right...nagtratrabaho na lang ba ko para sa trabaho? my prayer is that i wont lose my soul in the process of chasing rainbows...that ill be able to find myself in my own sense of limbo..

Muli

Muli
(Music and Lyrics : Chris Tabayan)

Nung una tayong magkita
Nagliliwanag ang mga ulap.
Pangako ng bawat sulyap
Ipinapakita ang mga Pangarap

Nakita ka na
Mamahalin
Aalagaan
Syang Ihaharap sa dambana

Ngunit ngayon
Nag iisa.
Nanghihinayang sa nakaraang


Chorus

Tatlong libong pagkakataon
Sinayang na panahon
Kung di lang sana naisip
na mararamdaman
Ang abot langit na pagsusumamo
Para makasama ka lang muli

Sa piling mo'y hindi na sana umalis.